Desteni answers my childhood questions!
With Desteni I have come full circle to my childhood. Perhaps all children who are born into this world experience great discrepancies between what is happening on the planet and what makes sense to them. Many of us forget that when we are little, we are not so impressed by what the world of adults has to offer. For me this was a particularly strong point which is where my journey for answers started, and I remember this well.
When I was a child the adults in my immediate surrounding considered me a late bloomer. I was born into an environment where I had to figure much out for myself. I can remember thinking that adults where strange because they did not want to play anymore. I certainly did not want to become like them. All their serious occupations seemed to stress them with little enjoyment. I could also never see why adults did what they did – why was work and family everything in life?
More importantly I could not understand why the earth was split up in ‘sections’. In some sections people lived well, they could buy all kinds of things and load up their houses while in other sections people had nothing or very little. About those ‘others’, who did not have what my family had, I knew little of. Back then the internet was not available and the general information flow did not flood my world the way it does today. Hence I learned about those ‘others’ in ad hoc situations, that seemed all too curious to me because no one had any real answers. Besides the occasional representative from charities coming to our house to collect money, the remainder of information concerning the ‘other’, or those who were not of middle-class European origin came to me in conversations like this one:
Mother: Eat what is on your plate. Other kids don’t have anything to eat – they would be so happy if they had what you have. So finish what’s on your plate.
Me: really? Where are those kids now?
Mother: they are in Africa
Me: and they can’t eat?
Mother: no they can’t eat
Me: but they must be hungry
Mother: of course they are hungry, they are just like you
Me: but if they are just like me, then why can’t they eat?
Mother: because they don’t have any money
Me: oh, why don’t they have money?
Mother: because they don’t have work
Me: why don’t they have work?
Mother: because the country is poor
Me: why is the country poor?
Mother: finish your plate and stop talking
Me: why can’t we make them rich the way we are – you said they are hungry just like me?
Mother: end of talking, you need to finish what’s on your plate NOW!
Me: but I don’t understand…
My mother: I don’t care – finish your food NOW
Conversations like this one are not atypical for children, and my mother is not the only one who answered them in this way. All too often innocent questions end up unanswered because we, adults, no longer have common sense to answer in an earnest manner. How can we accept to not be able to answer to the most basic questions in life?
Later on in school I learned that this is all to do with our economic system; with supply and demand; with resources and labour that can be turned into money for the country; with interest rates and financing; that it had to do with government and organisation; politics and negotiations – It all seemed unnecessarily complicated and unjustifiable.
Why does it have to be this way? was neither answered in school nor at university. All information was usually presented as irrefutable fact to which I had to succumb in my thinking, to be a good student and be accepted in society. I had to make-belief what I was told and not ask too many of the wrong kinds of questions. At some point in my teenage years when I realised that life is quite one dimensional, I turned to Eastern religion to find answers on why we live like we do in this world. The mystical and spiritual aspects of Eastern religion were the perfect place to escape to in hopes of finding ‘the’ kernel of truth that must be hidden somewhere, and that would explain it all. In essence, I realise today that I was pursuing my self-interest, the perfectly constructed diversion that would allow me to ignore what was happening around me, the abuse, the atrocities and the wars – it would allow me to shroud my life in self-righteousness behaviour and feel good about it.
I was already so conditioned to believe that through acquiring knowledge I would gain access to answers, I gladly studied Eastern religion to find my way out of this ‘darkness’. Answers, I thought, had to be earned through hard work, just like grades in school. This meant studying Sanksrit and learning the yoga sutras, the upanishads, the Baghavad Gita – spending my time in meditation and mantra repetition. In short, the harder the path to accomplishment seemed to be the more I believed to be on the right track.
My journey took me from Hinduism to Tibetan Buddhism, yet there was always something that was a bit ‘strange’ or did not fit together quit so well. Thus, I believed that the current path I had selected was not right one in the long run, and this thinking gave me permission to move on. After all, why do Hindus stone people to death, in the so-called honour killings, when at the same time, they are vegetarians? Am I missing something?
When Eastern spirituality wore off and I still had not seen any profound answers to my questions and no real change in my personal life, I returned to the Western information pool. Meanwhile there were some people who were exposing that what we were taught by the authorities was a form of mind control. The insights these people had into our system made sense to me and gave me an outlet for my anger that I harboured against the injustices of the world. Anger, I had previously learned to suppress when I was on the mystical path. Mostly I read and listened to so-called conspiracy theories, which did not demand much else from me besides reading and listening to those who were broadcasting their ideas. From there I drifted into the Western love and light community, where many also had one foot in the conspiracy theories.
I started studying again, learning to write reams of affirmations, new methods of visualisations and meditation, working with crystals and other paraphernalia. Yet, just as all the previous times, something remained missing and left me dissatisfied.
My entry point into the Desteni material were Jack’s videos on the history of mankind. At first these videos confused me but also intrigued me and I felt attracted to them. In a couple of weeks I watched the 100 videos on the topic, every night after my day’s work. The perspectives on life and human existence were new and different, and they involved me, I was no longer the innocent bystander. I then took the step to sign up for the forum. Here were tools offered to me that I could use to enable myself: I had to become self-organised about my process of self-realisation. I had to take responsibility that the world was in this state, no one else was there to pick up the pieces, but I could stand up and do just that.
Suddenly terms like “oneness” made sense because they had a practical value and not as I previously experienced an intellectual one. I recall that that the vocabulary used in the various spiritual practices remained isolated from my daily reality. I saw myself continuously grasping to understand and to implement that which I learned in scriptures, from those who were channelling, and other spiritual figures. The statements that are made within the Desteni group are solid, and gave me practical guidelines in how I can take a concept, for example “oneness” and implement it to address my behaviour in the world. At the same time, Desteni is like a living organism, while changes in how the material is presented can occur, the essence never shifts.
From my perspective nothing has compared to Desteni, because equality and oneness are implemented all the way – on the micro and macro level. On the individual or micro level is where tools like self-forgiveness, self-corrective action are presented. The overall picture is also taken into consideration because to achieve practical oneness, a global system as such, the macro level, needs to change as well. The Equal Money System is the solution for an economic blueprint of oneness.
I related a long story in how I got to Desteni to show that I have tried many different approaches over time. Having arrived where I am right now is the end of that journey. The search is over, because through coming to Desteni I realise that I am this journey, to become equal to all that is here. All else is a quick fix which only does one thing: a self-serving attempt to stop one’s own suffering – yet not comprehending that all is truly connected in oneness. Like the mind is not separate from the body as Descartes and others intellectuals have suggested, thereby initiating the development of separation that we have taken to the extreme at this time – the individual is not separate from the group. This has never been understood on earth that is why all other attempts, practices and tradition have failed to bring absolute changes to humanity. This is also why Desteni will prevail and bring about a profound change in the world, and in the co-habitation of humans with all other beings.